Tony

So with the Wings getting bet in game 3 I'm very depressed/angry and I have a final tomorrow yuck! So I thought I would try this music thingy. Some will be insanely easy, other perhaps not so much.

Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play.
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from. No cheating with lyrics searches, etc.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.


1. "You say you're lookin' for someone, Who's never weak but always strong, To protect you and defend you, Whether you are right or wrong"

2. "All the lights on and you are alive, But you can't point the way to your heart So sublime, when the stars are aligned, But you don't know You don't know the greatness you are"

3. "It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end, And how can I blame you When I built my world around, The hope that someday we'd be so much more than friends"

4. "Tell her not to go, I ain’t holding on no more, Tell her nothing if not this; all I want to do is kiss her"


5. "Moved out of the house so you moved next door, I locked you out you cut a hole in the wall, I found you sleeping next to me I thought I was alone, You're driving me crazy when are you coming home"

6. "But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."

7. "“said I shot a man named gray, Took his wife to italy, She inherited a million bucks, And when she died it came to me, I can’t help it if I’m lucky"

8. "and all my instincts, they return and the grand facade, so soon will burn"

9. "Other dancers may be on the floor, Dear, but my eyes will see only you, Only you have the magic technique,When we sway I go weak"

10. "It was a cup of good intentions, A table spoon of one big mess, A dash of over reaction, I assume you know the rest"

11. "Wanna know who you are, Wanna know where to start, I wanna know what this means, Wanna know how you feel, Wanna know what is real, I wanna know everything, everything"

12. "Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian, Welcome to the toon town party, Here comes Superman, from never-neverland, Welcome to the toon town party"

13. "It's Friday night, So creepy outside, It's is thundering and lightning, There's nobody home, Cause I'm all alone, It's scary and it's frightening"

14. "We're made out of blood and rust, Looking for someone to trust, Without, A fight"

15. "And I give it all away, Just to have somewhere, To go to, Give it all away, To have someone, To come home to"

16. "Let him know that you know best, Cause after all you do know best, Try to slip past his defense, Without granting innocence, Lay down a list of what is wrong, The things you've told him all along, And pray to God he hears you, And pray to God he hears you"

17. "The words you scribbled on the walls, With the loss of friends you didn't have, I called you and the time is right, Are you in or are you out? For them all to know"

18. "I thought I told you to leave me, While I walked down to the beach, Tell me how does it feel, When your heart grows cold"

19. "If you could only read my mind, You would know that I've been waiting, So long, For someone almost just like you, But with attitude, I'm waiting so come on"

20. "I don’t know anymore, What it’s for, I’m not even sure, If there is anyone who is in the sun, Will you help me to understand, ’cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need, Maybe you’re not even sure what it’s for, Any more than me"

I hate change, this is well documented and most of you are FULLY aware of this. However I've changed over the past month, and not that whole "oh my, college has changed me" sort of way that too many kids say like this whole other person was not able to come out during thier high school years. But one part of me has changed, and it has to do with relationships. before it terrfied me to think of asking a girl out, that fear of rejection was unreal. Now, thats gone. I don't care anymore. Thinking back I can't believe how much time I wasted just hoping the girl would make the first move, smile at me, or wink at me. Or how I would be friends with a girl I was interested in for years and hope that one day she would wake up and realize she was meant to be with me. Which brings me to Keehner, a girl I have fond over for years. A few months ago the meer thought of her knowing that I have feelings for her scared me to death, not anymore. I've realized it's nothing to be afraid of, why had something? The worst thing that can happen is that she says no...which she did haha. But, I'm not up set, I'm not stressing, I'm just going with it. Today she was saying how it makes her feel guilty when I do this, which I've been known to do from time to time, which is not how I want to make her feel but shes not going to have to worry about that anymore becuase I'm done. I'm no longer going to put all my energy towards someone who doesn't give that affection back. So all the cute, clever, romantic things I've done for her over the years are over because it hurts too much, I need to get off this ride.

but I'm not going to stress over these things anymore, I don't care any more that Keehner knows how I feel about her, or any other girl for that matter, becasue it is so much easier this way. And you know what, I like not being stressed lol.

Today on campus the tours of the University are going on, you know those tours where kids come to see if this is the school they want to attend. I never understood them. I've wanted to go to Michigan since the 3rd grade, I was adament about going here, I didn't have to come and visit to see what it was like, this was where I had to go. I think all of you went to visit at least one school, I applied to 4 schools-UM A2, UM-Dearborn, Michgan State, and Eastern Michigan-I never visited one. I just didn't "get it." Honestly, I think it's crazy that a kid doesn't know where he or she wants to go to college by the end of their Jr year in high school. Then again, I'm sure you all think it's crazy for someone to base their decision on where they want to go to college on a football team :-)

So I thought I had a job interview today for an office position for the Michigan Atheltic summer camps-turns out it was an interview to be a camp counsler fo rthe summer camps-they made a mistake and thought I wanted to be interviewed for both. So after the main guy gave his little intro speech I said that I applied for the office job and he apologized for wasting my time and was really sorry for the mix up, then he asked if I wanted to stay and interivew for the counsler job anyways. I thought about it for a split second, kindly said no thank you, and he said he would be contacting me later about the office job.

Then I got on the bus and made my way to my car at the State Street commuter lot to bring back to the free parking garage after 5 so I won't have to wait for the bus to take me to my car at 9 pm tonight when I am done with my econ test. On the way to my car I started thinking about the counsler job and what they were offering-a private room in South Quad (still community bathroom downthe hall), three free meals a day, and $165 a week, and work from 8 pm to 8 am every day, which would allow me to take a spring and a summer class during the day (b/c I am about to fail my second econ test and I will be dropping it on Friday) it would have been perfect, I would get to live on my own for the summer. Then I got hit by a major panic attack, I got really hot, so I'm sure my face was red, my heart started pumping fast, and a feeling of nausea came over me. Just the thought of living on my own made me freak out.

I don't know how everyone does it. Some people come here from LA, or New York, miles and miles, hours and hours away from home and they are ok. Even my friends, Keehner is four hours away, hell Patti isn't even on the same continent anymore, and they are ok. I couldn't even live 20 mins away from home, I tried that, my stuff spent a total of 11 days at Oxford, I spent a total of 5 days. Just something about being alone that freaks the hell out of me. I was telling Keehner this, I didn't even consider out of state schools because I didn't want to be alone, going to a new place and not knowing anyone. Oh I told myself it would be different in Ann Arbor, that I would change, that I would be more out going, I would go make new friends, I would be different that before. I got into Ann Arbor and I didn't change, I stayed the same, I didn't want to be out going, I didn't want to make friends, I wanted to go back home, because change is the scairest thing to me. I thought my love for the Football Team would over-come the being alone thing, but I was alone in Ann Arbor and I couldn't handel it.

I admire those who can go live on their own, to go to school in a different state, who can go to a place where they know no one and are ok with it. I wish I could be like that, but I don't understand how you guys can do that. Leaving home and being HOURS away from home scares me to death-like I said I couldn't even make it being 20 mins away from home. I remember those 5 days I spent in Ann Arbor, I was alone the whole time-eating alone-going to class alone-watching TV alone-killing time alone-I don't think I talked more than 20 words in a day-most of my "talking" was done online to friends who hadn't left for school yet-lying in bed realizing your all alone is a scary thought.

So I figured, "Hey, if I'm going to be alone all the time I might as well not feel horrible the whole time" So I moved back home. And I do the same things-go to class alone-eat alone-kill time alone-and I might say a total of 10 words while I'm on campus (exculding radio-which by the way is the only time I feel wanted or accepted). Then I go home and I talk, and laugh, and goof around, and have fun.

Well I got to get heading over to the MLB, I'm in the fish bowl right now, so I can fail a test for the second time in as many tries, drop the class on Friday, and hope that I can take Econ 101 and 102 at Schoolcraft or Henry Ford. If I can't do that, then I will take Econ 101 in the Spring Term, and Econ 102 in the Summer Term.

Oh by the way, I got accepted into the School of Ed.

On Wednesday I made my way down to Dennison to surprise Keehner with her first visitor ever this year, and I totally pulled it off-she had no idea. I was a little worried she might figure it out as the past few days before I left I was trying to get some information out of her like her room number, when she wouldn't have class/be in her dorm room, but she was clueless.

It's a 4 hour drive each way-some how Keehner makes it in 3, don't ask me how-and it's not bad until that 4th hour. On the way down there it was getting dark and I was driving on this little road that is only comaprable to Route 2 to go to Cedar Point and I know that road like th back of my hand and I STILL won't drive it if it's going to be dark on the way back-I take the Turnpike-so I was a little freaked out driving on this little road. What was wired is that I would drive for like 5 miles with NOTIHNG then BOOM! theres this littleand I mean litte, like 5 shops on each side of the road, towns and then it would be 5 miles until I saw any sign of civilization. So I finally get there and i drive through this little town that looks like it comes straight out of a movie-think Runaway Bride-and at the end of the road is the entrance. So I drive up the hill and they actually have visitor parking-for free!

Then the fun really started as I had to try to find her dorm passed it and and to double back when I actually realized it was this one. Then I had to act like a stalker and wait until one guy came in and I slipped in behind him. Found her room in the basement and when she opened the door it took her-and me actually-a second to realized it was me/her. Then she took a step back, freaked out, turned red, and hugged me like 5 times asking "Why the hell are you doing here!?" So then she showed me around campus which is smaller than dearborn and it is set aside from everything, it's like there own little bubble which was really nice. It was weird for me though, as I am used to dodging cars and passing resturant after resturant in Ann Arbor. Another thing is that she would see friends all the time, just running into them that never happens in Ann Arbor! You don't just run into people you know, you have to call them and be like "where are you? want to meet here?" I really liked the campus though it was small and intimate, kinda reminded me of Greenfield Village.

I met a few of her friends, and then we watched American Idol, oh Chicken Little *shakes head*. Then I made my way to the Super 8 as I didn't want to make jen sleep in the same bed as her roommate, and that was fun because it was like 11 and there were no street lights and I was in the middle of no where. Anways, I find it walk in and the guy behind the counter gives a wierd look and goes, "can I help you?" like he had no idea I wanted a room. "Actually, Spike told me this was the drop off/pick up site." Why else would I go to a motel at 11:30?! So the next morning I hung out with Jen at "The Pit" which had to be like 100 degrees. for the rest of the time we just sat and talked which was nice. I gave her her birthday gift, the Post Secret book and a t-shit which is an inside joke so I'm not going to explain the whole thing. Then I got the dirty lok from her friend V as she had also bought Keehner the Post Secret book, good thing I gave her her gift first because I did not keep the receipt and I wrote in it haha.

Then I had to get goin' back to Michigan. I would have stayed the rest of the day and come back today but her parents were coming in a day early and she would have to be with them and I would just be sitting in the motel by myself haha. But it was a fun little trip and I think she got a kick out of it too.

My cousin is getting married over the summer, July 8th, so I assumed I was going to be allowed to bring a date. So I asked Keehner to come along with me, thinking it's a wedding-people bring dates. Well I write my cousin an e-mail just making sure, just to be polite. Well, she writes back saying that they want to keep the wedding small and that only if I am in a serious relationship can I bring a date. WHAT?!

That is just bad wedding edict! If you invite a person to your wedding, and they are not a kid, then you allow them to bring a date. period. What, do you expect someone to come to your wedding alone? If that wasn't bad enough she said she wanted to keep the guest list down to keep the price down. Her parents, my aunt and uncle, and playing for this wedding, and guess what, they are LOADED. They paid for her to go to U-M for four years (out of state) and to live in an apartment by her self for 3 years, and now they are putting her bother through Ohio State (in state) who also has had an apartment for 3 years, so don't tell me that another $60 is going to break the bank.

So with that I told her, yeah me and Keehner are "serious." I mean I really took this as an insult. I'm not a kid, if I was 25 would they still ask me to only bring a date if it's "serious"? So this should be fun, something right out of a movie/sitcom, and the best part is I don't even care if they find out me and Keehner are just friends. They expect people to come to their wedding alone? Get with it.

So I think I want to start working out at the CCRB...anyone interested?

So I hate stupid people. Actually I hate people who come into the quiet study room in the Union and talk for a half hour-5 feet from the door-while I'm trying to figure out econ. Also that day, a girl comes in with a meal from Magic Wok and sits down across from me and starts eating, no books, no notes, no nothing! Just the crunch every time she took a bite. Then, she finishes, gets up, and leaves! She just cam ein there to eat! Hello, there are a bajillion tables down in the basement for eating! sheesh.

Second, I think I should have gone to school down in Florida because I am complaining that it is too cold and its 42 today! In Feb! I am like the worst Michigan person ever.

3 Weeks till Spring Break!!

So I have decided that I am going to take my Disney World trip during the Summer of 2007. And I am putting this up here becasue I want to see if anyone would want to come with me. I realy don't want to go by myself but I will if no one wants to go, but I think it will be a lot more fun if I have friends with me. So I got some prices-for 2 people for 5 days it comes to about $875 per. That includes Flight, transportation to and from the airport, hotel room, park hopper tickets for each day, and one sit down resturant-one counter serice food-and one treat-each day.

For 2 people to go 7 days for all of that is about $1,000
For 4 people to go 5 days it is $775
and for 4 people for 7 days its about $900

Sooooooo ANYONE at all interested? Come on it'll be fun! You get to see me freak out on an airplane not once, but twice!

Gah, just paid my tuition bill, at the tone of $7,400! It really wouldnt be too bad but that stupid Oxford Housing is still on there, b/c the university once again proved that they care about nothing but money when they refused to let me out of my contract. So I was doing some fun calculations. I moved in on a Wednesday-freaked myself out about the whole thing-went home thursday night after helping Jeff pass out water at Crisler. came back saturday fo the football game, got picked back up afte the football game, then came back Monday night b/c classes started Tuesday, stayed until Saturday evening where I came back form the Notre Dame football game and packed everything up and moved back home. So I figure I spent 6 nights in Oxford Housing. Sooooo $4,500 for the year, divided by 6 nights equals $750 a night! And trust me, the accomadations were not up to that hefty price tag.

Looking back on that whole thing I realize that I freaked myself out about living there. I was perfectly fine during the day but the nights are what kinda hit me, but still I totally blew it out of proportions. I guess the problem I had was that there wasn't anyone there to say, "Tony, give it a chance, stay another week, see how it goes, you just got to get used to it, it gets better." That sorta thing. Sure, many of my friends called me up, but they were either A. back in Canton, or B. in Ohio. And while I appreciate them trying to help it's totally different doing that/hearing that on the phone than having someone there in person doing it.

I seem to have this problem where I don't give things a chance and quit before I really get the whole effect. High School was the same. I HATED high school for the first month or so, but then once I got into the swing of things I really enjoyed it. Same at Dearborn, HATED it the first few weeks, but again, once I got going I actually realized it wasn't so bad. Then I moved to Ann Arbor-I had NEVER EVER been away from home or my family for more than a single day-and I HATED it. Only difference was that the other times I couldn't quit. I mean you can't stop going to high school or college, well I guess you could stop going to college but whatever, at Oxford I had an out and i jumped at it quickly. I compare it to Football at Salem. I went out to play, was there for maybe two weeks hated it and quit. I wish I could go back and at least give it a chance.

That seems to be a big problem of mine, giving up to quickly, not giving stuff a chacne. I almost wish there was someone in my life to that would have said "No Tony, you are at least going to give this a try, give it some time." No, I had my Dad yelling at me to give up football b/c I was too small, not fast enough, and would never get recruited by Michigan, and had no shot to make the NFL (hey, it was my dream since like the 3rd grade) and at that time in my life (9th grade) I actually cared what my Dad thought and said, (NOT ANYMORE) so I listened to him and gae it up, just like that my dream, poof. My Mom tried to get me to keep at it, but she didn't force me. I wish someone would have. Just like I wish someone would have forced me to stay in Ann Arbor longer than 6 days.